Another thing I have always dreamed of doing is writing my own book, but I'm not the best writer or storyteller for that matter, so a blog will have to do just fine.
Today is a Tuesday, in fact it's the 5th Tuesday I have been in New Jersey and I'm realizing more everyday how quickly life passes us by.
As I've been job searching, I have been faced with many different emotions. Discouragement and longing are the two I have felt the most. Discouragement for the lack of responses from jobs I have applied to. But, longing for the job I will have one day that I can call my own. I am so ready and willing to help people. My PASSION is helping people. As I have been home day after day attending to my daily tasks of being a wife (which I am not complaining about because it's wonderful) I still feel like something is missing, I need to be needed.
Then I am reminded how God needs to be needed too. I haven't been putting my complete faith and trust in the one who knows the plans for my life. That's something I have struggled with over the past 10 months. To those who know me or those who care to know more about me, my Dad passed away almost 4 months ago from cancer after he fought his toughest battle. That man lives in me today and I can tell more and more every day how alike we were, I just didn't realize it until now. I'm still trying to figure out how to put my trust in God and not constantly wonder why God chose to take my dad home earlier than I wanted. But, life goes on and I know one thing, that I want nothing more than to make both my Fathers proud of me.
Who do you want to be proud of you?
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