Think less but see it grow..

Too often I find myself wondering and worrying and thinking TOO much about what the heck I'm supposed to be doing in this town, in this place I haven't quite called my home.

Why is it that we always want what we can't have? I was so ready to grow up and be done with school and all the responsibilities that come with it, but I'd give anything to be back there with the routine, crazy late nights and friends all around me. What is my purpose here? And when did I become an adult? I know there is something greater waiting for me but I have to trust God first that He knows what He is doing in my life.

What is your purpose in this life?

One of the things I love and dislike most about myself is the fact that I am a very perceptive and compassionate person. I always want people to feel welcomed, to not be left out and to not be lonely. I become saddened by just observing people who may not have family or friends and it frustrates me that I can't do more to ensure that people become accepted by society.  This world, filled with so many people is a lonely lonely place for many individuals. A lot of us may not realize this because of the mass amounts of friends we have and the loving family that would never let us become lonely or ALONE.  People who are marginalized by society have been pushed away by whatever family they came from.  One of the groups most prone to this type of marginalization are those who have physical and mental disabilities.  I have been applying to many jobs that focus on this population in great detail and help them lead self-determined lifestyles and help them to feel like a part of the community. I pray that I will be able to work in those people's lives one day.  We really just need to think less and do what Jesus would do.

I want to make a difference in this world.
Who have you included today?

It's nice to be seen!

I decided to make the trip home to Indiana (thank you planes for making an 11 hour trip into a breezy two hour flight) for a long weekend. After going a little stir crazy and not having face to face contact with the people I love most, I was in dire need of a reunion!

Little did I know it was a measley 28 degrees an WINDY when I landed, and I was reminded of this beautiful citys' nickname.

It has been such a blessing to share cherished moments over Commander breakfasts, trips to Target, watching AFV with a life-long friend, and drives through my familiar home town. Let's not forget my buddy Peanut :). There's something about the love of a childhood dog that can make you feel complete.

As I am relaxing tonnight in my mom's house and listening to Christmas music (my mom had it on, I didn't  put it on) I am reminded of the beauty of family. We all have our own quirks, likes, dislikes, and faults, but we're still a family and we're more alike than we might want to admit.

This Thanksgiving I am so excited to say that I am thankful for my husband Andrew, we are a FAMILY now and that is just the coolest thing. As he said "Hi Mom" on skype today it made me smile and reminded me that our family gained a really great member:).

What are you thankful for this Thanksgiving? (sorry Kait, had to copy you:))

I slept through the sunrise....

I've never shared this with anyone, but having a blog has always been on my secret to do list. So, here I am with plenty of spare time, why not? 

Another thing I have always dreamed of doing is writing my own book, but I'm not the best writer or storyteller for that matter, so a blog will have to do just fine.

Today is a Tuesday, in fact it's the 5th Tuesday I have been in New Jersey and I'm realizing more everyday how quickly life passes us by. 

As I've been job searching, I have been faced with many different emotions.  Discouragement and longing are the two I have felt the most. Discouragement for the lack of responses from jobs I have applied to.  But, longing for the job I will have one day that I can call my own. I am so ready and willing to help people. My PASSION is helping people.  As I have been home day after day attending to my daily tasks of being a wife (which I am not complaining about because it's wonderful) I still feel like something is missing, I need to be needed.  

Then I am reminded how God needs to be needed too. I haven't been putting my complete faith and trust  in the one who knows the plans for my life.  That's something I have struggled with over the past 10 months. To those who know me or those who care to know more about me, my Dad passed away almost 4 months ago from cancer after he fought his toughest battle. That man lives in me today and I can tell more and more every day how alike we were, I just didn't realize it until now.  I'm still trying to figure out how to put my trust in God and not constantly wonder why God chose to take my dad home earlier than I wanted. But, life goes on and I know one thing, that I want nothing more than to make both my Fathers proud of me. 

Who do you want to be proud of you?